l(a

I haven’t blogged in awhile. My theory on why is because I haven’t had much time to read anything. I’m always inspired by the books I read and usually I at least find an escape in my English class but unfortunately, we are on poetry. Poetry doesn’t do it for me. Or, if it does, it has to be spectacular. I think I did find a favorite poet though – E.E. Cummings.

My favorite poem by him is l(a. That is literally the title, it shouldn’t surprise you though if you know anything about E.E. Cummings’ style.

l(a

le
af
fa

ll

s)
one
l

iness

There it is, in all its beauty.

I think it inspired me, but in a weird way. I don’t know if I liked its shape or if I liked just simply finding out what it said. I think part of the figuring it out is just amazing: You get so happy! I understand, yes! But then it dawns on you that it is actually quite sad, but still you’re not sure if you’ve picked up all the pieces.

Or at least, that’s how it felt for me.

Well, I did a couple of things for myself. I picked a college because I wanted to go there and not anybody else. Not that anyone else was forcing me anywhere, but it’s cool to make such a selfish decision. I also didn’t do track this season which is…new. I just didn’t fit in and I never liked running sprints so, here I am now signed up at a boxing gym where I take boxing lessons and then lift weights and occasionally run on the treadmill watching the news. It is just different.

I think we should all shake up our routine every once in awhile. Track was amazing frosh year but I’m a completely different person my senior year. We all are from gradual changes and knowledge.

Good or bad.

Also, I think its okay to feel lonely because you find out stuff about yourself and others.

So, what is beauty but the course of life?